TW- mentions of trauma, details of trauma, eating disorders, ocd, death, chronic illness, child abuse I see her now, when im laying in bed crying myself to sleep. So weak, in pain, and scared of everything. She was so small. "YOU'RE GOING TO DIE!" She stopped eating 2 weeks ago. Couldn't even hold her eyes open to look at her mother while she screamed at her. Rolling over onto her side to throw up off the edge of the mattress. "THIS IS YOUR OWN FAULT FOR NOT EATING!" How coul

This post is a free form creative poem that may be upsetting. Trigger warning: Domestic Family Violence, Abuse, Suicide, Death, PTSD. On the 15th of June I should have died. And March last year I should have died. And when I was 11 I should have died. On the 15th of June I lost my home. Last year I lost my belongings. And when I was 11 I lost my Dad. On the 15th of June I left. Last year I stayed. And when I was 11 he left. On the 15th of June it was a baseball bat. Last year

This is a post for 11 year old Jen. If you aren't 11 year old Jen dont read this. Heyyyyy, so it's our birthday soon! I'm gonna be 25! I know that's like super old, and we are still here. Don't panic though, I got this. Its been a while, but this last month or so I have felt you with me. Which is weird because you are me. But sometimes I see you in the mirror, or in my photos. We look a lot different now, well kind of. Still got the same smile though. I just wanted to remind

When I first started this blog as a teenager my main goal was to break stigmas around mental health, mainly DID. DID is dissociative identity disorder, a mental illness formed from intense childhood trauma in early development years. There are 2 main outcomes for those with DID. Functional Multiplicity or Integration. Functional Multiplicity involves learning ways to live as a collective system, allowing times for most/all alters to front and having a shared life. Integration

Trigger Warning- This post is a writing piece by myself discussing what my experience has been with trauma from a very young age, and surviving a suicide attempt. This will be upsetting for some readers. Please read with caution and always protect your own mental health. Sometimes I stay awake at night thinking about her. That little girl in the Princess dress. Her smile missing teeth, her giggle so infectious, and her skin unmarked. I think about how she had no idea about al

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