TW- mentions of trauma, details of trauma, eating disorders, ocd, death, chronic illness, child abuse I see her now, when im laying in bed crying myself to sleep. So weak, in pain, and scared of everything. She was so small. "YOU'RE GOING TO DIE!" She stopped eating 2 weeks ago. Couldn't even hold her eyes open to look at her mother while she screamed at her. Rolling over onto her side to throw up off the edge of the mattress. "THIS IS YOUR OWN FAULT FOR NOT EATING!" How coul

This is a post for 11 year old Jen. If you aren't 11 year old Jen dont read this. Heyyyyy, so it's our birthday soon! I'm gonna be 25! I know that's like super old, and we are still here. Don't panic though, I got this. Its been a while, but this last month or so I have felt you with me. Which is weird because you are me. But sometimes I see you in the mirror, or in my photos. We look a lot different now, well kind of. Still got the same smile though. I just wanted to remind

This post will be discussing my own personal experience with grief due to a physical health diagnosis. Mentions of death, suicidal ideation, trauma, needles, medical treatment, and chronic illness. This is not an educational post. This is a personal story. On the 18th June 2026, I went to the hospital. Something that had become a weekly event. Where I was awaiting test results. My doctors sat down with me to tell me I have Undifferentiated connective tissue disease. A progres

There is a saying 'nobody is coming to save you', that is used when you get stuck in life. This is one of those that I have believed for most of my life. Even the concept of being saved made my skin crawl. I've always been the one to pull myself out of situations, emotions, and challenges. Alone. 2 weeks ago I was proven wrong. I experienced a near death encounter at the hands of domestic family violence. Got diagnosed with an incurable progressive disease. Became homeless. F

Let's talk about BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) and Bipolar Disorder. This post will reference the DSM-5 and draw on my own personal experiences. These disorders are heavily stigmatised and misunderstood. This post will aim to clear up misconceptions and create clarity around these illnesses. BPD stands for Borderline Personality Disorder, a condition categorised as a cluster B personality disorder. People with Borderline Personality Disorder experience an instability

This is a stream of conciousness, diary style writing piece talking about the morning after a hospital visit. Mentions of suicide, suicide attempts, and mental illness. This is the morning after. Yesterday and ambulance was at my house. They took me to the hospital because i was going to take my life. Rather that stand up and grab the pills, I stayed in bed a little longer and called an access line. And then I got mad when they called an ambulance. My depression in a way save

I often compare my OCD to a radio station. In the studio the sound is so clear and loud. While a car down the road hears though a stereo. And a van driving interstate just listens to static. Some days I'm in that recording booth. But as I've drove a long way the sound fades each day. If OCD is a radio station, Bipolar is a theme park. The flashing lights that should warn, but instead excite me. I love the biggest roller-coaster, so high and dangerous. But I can't get off. The

Being in love is a strange thing. It's like the universe guides you to your person and then leaves you there in bliss. Without stopping...

This post is purely for me to discuss what I have experienced personally inside hospitals. Mentions of medication, suicide, mental...

Hey it's been a long time. It's okay, it's just me. You don't have to be scared here. We have pink hair now!!! Isn't that cool! I know...

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Below is a creative writing piece I wrote inspired by my own experience with suicidal ideation. This was really therapeutic for me to...

Here is a love poem for something a little different..... written about someone who was very important to me. But it wasn't a healthy...

Watch the water. As I sit and watch the water. I notice all the others doing much the same. We gravitate towards the water during tidal...

Creative writing piece. Chronic suicidal ideation. Longing to cease existing. An escape plan. A means to an end. The reasons change as...

What if we are all made up of those around us. Each and every one of us is mearly an accumulated mess of other people. Intertwined,...

Below is a written piece summarising last year for me. This was actually an exercise my therapist gave me to do. I debated posting for so...

I walked down that long white hallway. Sat in that bland waiting room. It was empty beside from one other patient. Cold, clinical, with...

OCD stands for obsessive compulsive disorder. OCD is a highly misunderstood diagnosis and carries a lot of stigma. There are two parts to...

Hi, it's been a few years. A lot has changed. Somethings never will. I never thought I'd be back here. The pressure of an audience got to...