This is a stream of conciousness, diary style writing piece talking about the morning after a hospital visit. Mentions of suicide, suicide attempts, and mental illness. This is the morning after. Yesterday and ambulance was at my house. They took me to the hospital because i was going to take my life. Rather that stand up and grab the pills, I stayed in bed a little longer and called an access line. And then I got mad when they called an ambulance. My depression in a way save

Trigger Warning- This post is a writing piece by myself discussing what my experience has been with trauma from a very young age, and surviving a suicide attempt. This will be upsetting for some readers. Please read with caution and always protect your own mental health. Sometimes I stay awake at night thinking about her. That little girl in the Princess dress. Her smile missing teeth, her giggle so infectious, and her skin unmarked. I think about how she had no idea about al

I'd like to start this post by saying that it is highly important to never romanticise mental illness. This post is intended to start discussion around a real symptom in Bipolar Disorder. I will be sharing from my own experiences and the experiences of others. No one's Bipoler is the same, and everyone will experience symptoms differently. This post is for those who want to learn more about Bipolar, have Bipolar themselves, or know someone with Bipolar and want more understan

I often compare my OCD to a radio station. In the studio the sound is so clear and loud. While a car down the road hears though a stereo. And a van driving interstate just listens to static. Some days I'm in that recording booth. But as I've drove a long way the sound fades each day. If OCD is a radio station, Bipolar is a theme park. The flashing lights that should warn, but instead excite me. I love the biggest roller-coaster, so high and dangerous. But I can't get off. The

This post is purely for me to discuss what I have experienced personally inside hospitals. Mentions of medication, suicide, mental...